be still, my soul...

the w-curve- o it definitely exists. and quite accurately, i must say..

today i reached the first dip. it is quite possible that i even skipped the 'honeymoon' phase. i don't ever recall that one.. waiting for this cloud i'm under to pass; the blue gets so deep at times. it seems nothing pertaining to the actual reason i came here- to study- is working out. i feel so useless, so very incapable. i vividly remember the last time i felt this way. when there seemed to exist this cycle of infinite dead ends. the blue gets so deep at times... all i need to do is worship. 

I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him." - Lamentations 3:24