on fernweh-

i hope the feeling of dépaysement doesn't bother you too much and i pray that you find the cure for your feeling of fernweh - or better yet develop that feeling and channel that energy to do more..."

a friend sent me this comment and his beautiful words reminded me of all that led me here. of all the nights and mornings spent daydreaming, praying. i wanted this so badly, i would have given so much for it- in fact i did. though there were moments i doubted if it was worth it, i can honestly say in my heart of hearts already, it was. and the thing is, this is only the beginning. the beginning of something so huge, so beyond me. 

perhaps i'm on the brink of said cure, the one i've been waiting for.